No Contact means that you, totally and categorically, cut off
all contact with your narcissistic mother and enabling father.
This is a very big, important subject, and so this is a long page with lots of information - I hope
it's not overload! But it's possibly the most important page on this website.
No Contact is a very big decision. It has huge challenges, as I share below. But
also there are so very, very many gifts as you shall read below - more than
you can even imagine.
The first step to No Contact is the heady, but terrifying, realisation that it's possible! Over the years I so
often longed to cut off contact with my parents, but cultural programming made me think it wasn't - I mean,
you can't leave your family!
The fear was also strong: Who will I be able to depend on if I go No Contact with my family? Will I end up
The guilt was also strong: How can I be so cruel as to abandon them by going No Contact?
Other daughters have issues I didn't have, such as the splintering of the rest of the family, i.e. siblings and/or
their father possibly siding so much with the Narcissistic Mother that they cut them (i.e. the Daughter) off. (The
reason I didn't have those issues is because, with the exception of one sister, my whole family was already
And so, the realisation that yes, it's possible, and many women do it, is hugely liberating. (And
The next step is the painful - but ultimately liberating one - of finally giving up the dream, the
fantasy, that you'll ever have a proper mother. I think the biggest thing that keeps us emmeshed in this
dysfunctional and damaging relationship is the hope that one day she'll change.
The reality is that she won't. If she's truly Narcissistic, she won't.
And a hugely important part of our journey is to finally accept that, so that we can walk away.
EFT can help with this process, as can journaling and
If you feel that you're not entitled to go No Contact, maybe check out Light's Toxicity Test">Light's Toxicity Test, to find out if she's really toxic or
if you're just over-reacting. That information should help you realise if No Contact is justified.
There are other issues to think of too.
For instance, how are you going to actually go No Contact. As I explained in the section about me, I was literally sick with nerves wondering how to tell them I didn't want to
see them again.
Some people phone, some write. Others tell their father (although their father, still enabling and
protecting the Narcissistic Mother, might not pass the message on).
Others just stop contacting and hope that she'll get the hint. If she's an Ignoring
Mother, she might (although that has its own issues as I share below), but an Engulfing Mother never will.
In fact, separating from an Engulfing Mother can be very
difficult. She's going to feel threatened at the prospect of losing all the Narcissistic Supply she gets from you.
So she may try all sorts of tricks to keep you emmeshed with her, such as suddenly becoming
nice, and seeming to become the mother you always wanted. This is very hard to resist, of course! It's
like all your dreams come together - and just when you had finally acccepted it wasn't going to happen.
But be warned, if she's a true Narcissistic Mother, then she can never
really change. As soon as you're back involved with her, she'll drop the 'nice' and revert to how she always
was - or maybe be even nastier for a while, to punish you for having thought of leaving her. (If you do get
sucked in by the nice act, don't blame yourself. She's very good at what she does, and we're programmed to want her
love so badly. And don't forget that you get as many chances as you need/want to go No Contact.)
Or, if she has successfully infantilised you enough, she might
sneer at you that you'd never survive without her - and you may well believe her.
Or she may just refuse to honour your decision, and call around, and phone, and basically stalk
you. It's not unheard of for daughters to have to get barring orders for their mothers - not fun.
Or she may try to get to you via others - your siblings, your father, other relatives. She may
prime them to phone you and get them to say things like, "How could you do this? You're breaking your mother's
heart, you know. She's crying all the time. She can't believe you're doing this to her. After all she's done for
you, all these years. She loves you and misses you and all she wants is to see you again."
It's very hard to stand up against that.
And of course, it's up to you whether you do stand up to that, or not. Nothing in this
website is about advocating No Contact, or any other action. You need to do what's right for you. This website is
about empowering you, not about being yet another way of you being controlled.
I would just suggest that you ask yourself what is behind their reaching out to you? Is
it genuine remorse, or manipulation? Is your Narcissistic Mother owning any of the problem, or is she saying things
like, 'the difficulties between us', i.e. hinting that you're both equally responsible?
And if you do go back, does her behaviour genuinely change? That's the acid test. Anybody can say
anything, and Narcissists are very good at saying anything that's necessary to get what they want. But they cannot
consistently and genuinely change their behaviour. (Indeed, deep down they don't even see why they should
change their behaviour!)
A very good book on why it's so difficult to go No Contact
See this page for information on what exactly No Contact
What about an Ignoring Mother?
If you have an Igoring Mother, as I have, then she'll let you go easily. Really easily. Too
easily in some ways. It really, really hurts how easily she lets you go. She makes no effort to keep you.
Did you really matter that little?
The answer is, Yes. You mattered that little. But that's not a reflection on you. It's part of
her having NPD that you, and everybody, mattered that little to her. You were valuable to her only to the extent
that you gave her Narcissistic Supply, and now that you've shown you're not going to do that any more - well, she
has no use for you any more.
The Joys of No Contact
So, No Contact can be tough to do. But the gifts are immeasurable. I haven't spoken to a single
daughter who regrets it, indeed most are bubbling over with the joys of it.
For myself, I am experiencing more self-esteem, more joy, less pressure, less negative
thinking, more freedom! But even more, I'm experiencing gifts I never thought I'd have. For instance a lifetime of
crippling period pain has disappeared - every month over the (currently) seven months of No Contact has been less
and less painful.
There has been sadness, don't get me wrong. And bereavement, and grief. And anger. It has truly
been a journey. (I used EFT to heal those emotions, which really
But the gifts have been so, so worth it.
Light, of www.lightshouse.org, who co-created the
Narcissistic Parent Survival Kit with me, wrote so eloquently
about the gifts of No Contact (on our forum) that I asked her for permission to replicate it here - which she kindly gave. You can read it here - I dare you to read it and NOT get excited about the
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