Where does negative self-talk come from, and why would anybody choose to indulge in it?
Well, first let me define what I mean by negative self-talk.
It's that little voice, usually a squeaky little voice, which constantly narrates in your head, and talks down
to you. It's the one which, in essence, has taken over from your Narcissistic Mother. It's the one which says:
You can't do that! You're useless. You never achieve anything. You're not worth looking after. Nobody likes
you. You're no good. You'll never succeed, etc, etc
Here's the thing: humans are born with lots of unconnected nerve endings in the brain called neurons.
A big part of the work of a baby is to literally make connections between those neurons. Those connections are
called neural pathways. That is, for example, how we learn language. We make a connection/neural pathway
between the image of, say, a cat, and the word 'cat'.
The more we reinforce that neural pathway between the image of a cat and the word 'cat' the stronger
it grows. That's how repetition helps us to learn - learning is nothing more than deliberately creating a
desired neural pathway.
This is a brilliant system as it means we don't have to reinvent the wheel every time - we'd go mad if we had to
However, it depends on the right input in the first place. If, somehow, we saw the image of a dog and
learned the word 'cat', then the system would still work perfectly, but because we had started with wrong
information, our brain would be wired wrong, i.e. we'd think that gormless panting creature was a 'cat'.
The same thing applies to the sense we make of the world. If we are loved we learn that we are loveable, and
that connection gets fixed in place.
As Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers, of course, either we weren't loved, or
were loved very dysfunctionally - and so that's the connection we have.
And her messages acted like affirmations, creating those neural pathways: You can't do that! You're useless.
You never achieve anything. You're not worth looking after. Nobody likes you. You're no good. You're worthless.
You'll never succeed, etc, etc
Even if our mother didn't teach us this in as many words, we humans are very clever at gathering
evidence and coming to conclusions. Which again is a very useful trait but can backfire. Because we'll experience
how she treated us and tell ourselves the wrong messages!
And so our neural pathways were created, and that little voice, that negative self-talk is nothing more than
those neural pathways being triggered.
This is very good news. It means - and this is so, so important - that:
Just because we think a thought, doesn't mean
I would love that everybody would know that. It's so
It means that if you think, I can't do that, or I'm useless,
I'll never achieve anything - that it's not necessarily true.
Now, an honest assessment of your abilities is no harm. If I - five foot nothing, middle-aged and
overweight - say, I can't represent my country in basketball - then that's probably
But I'm talking about the knee-jerk pre-programmed beliefs our Narcissistic Mother and Enabling Father installed in us.
So, if you think one of these negative beliefs, just conciously think to yourself: Ah,
there's that thought again. How interesting. But I'm not thinking that thought any more. I'm now
thinking ----- and fill in a more empowering thought.
Stepping back and observing the thought, with mild interest, is so, so empowering and freeing. It takes away the
power of the thought.
Over time the original, negative, neural pathway will wither, and the more empowering thought will
take its place. However - it's hard to get into the habit of observing the thought instead of being immersed
in it, and the key phrase about changing it is, 'over time'.
There is one way, though, of turbo-charging those changes, and it's using EFT. EFT is simple
to do, easy, and powerful. You can learn more about it here,
and read reports from users here. There's lots of information about EFT, and 8 EFT written scripts included in my
book You're Not Crazy - It's Your Mother, which is available also as part
of the Narcissistic Parent Survival Kit.
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